I was born in 1960 in San Diego California. My mother raised 9 children on her own overcoming great adversity.  Succeeding both as a mother and becoming a successful professional computer scientist in the late 50s. She was an amazing inspiration. One of my earliest memories was standing in the driveway of my childhood home at around 5 or 6 and for some reason being totally terrified. I remember specifically thinking to myself that I didn't care what it took, that I would take the hard road and learn whatever I had to learn and never have to live in terror or fear again.

My family was extremely Catholic (3 out of 4 of my sisters became nuns) and I had 12 years of private Catholic school so my perspective on life was very sheltered. My relationship with my father was a hurtful experience as he was paranoid schizophrenic. He was very negative towards me. Probably the single most important circumstance was that I realized I was gay. I was confronted with my religious upbringing and it caused me to seriously question all that I had been taught. After all, according to my religion, my desires were considered "evil", yet, I didn't feel evil. So, what was the truth?

When I was 22 I moved to Los Angeles in part to get away from a very unhealthy yet addictive relationship with a married woman I had gotten into when I was trying to be straight. I also needed to try to discover myself. With the help of some amazingly kind people I made my way to Los Angeles. They helped me deal with my sexuality by showing me a world where I was not judged for who I was. My 20s were a time of great confusion,  I had dropped out of college after 2 years basically because I was such a mess and couldn’t handle it. I didn't know what to do and I felt like a total failure without what it took to succeed.

I have always been extremely mechanical so I took a job as an alarm technician. In the 1980's the only people who had alarms were the very wealthy, so I spent my time in amazing homes in Beverly Hills, Malibu, Bel Air etc. I studied the very wealthy for years, I asked myself, what do these people have that I don't? What is it that makes someone wealthy? Is it education? Intelligence? And does wealth make you happy? My mind is very analytical and scientific in it's approach. I realized that these people saw life totally differently than I did, that what they expected (not what they wanted) was different. Children of wealthy people tended to be wealthy mostly because it was "normal" for them, it wasn't something that was a struggle to achieve.

At this time I met a wonderful clairvoyant. She taught me a lot. She told me I had to learn to love myself which was a concept I had never even heard of. She also helped me to realize that I had a burning desire inside me. I had a deep belief that anything in life was possible, and that this was something that I really wanted to share with mankind. I had absolutely no idea how I was to do this and I certainly didn't feel as though I was in a position to advocate this. After all I felt like a mess myself. Never the less I put one foot in front of the other and moved forward. I knew that I had to be able to walk the walk and not just talk the talk if I was to realize my dreams.

I had started to read positive thinking books (my own attitude was  on the negative side) doing affirmations and learned how to meditate. But I was still not happy at. Mentally I believed I was a beautiful perfect being but emotionally I felt far from beautiful and lovable.  I realized that if I was to succeed in life I was going to have to take some drastic measures. I set out on a quest to learn how to change how I felt, not just what I thought. In the early 1990s with the help of my sister Sylvia I took 3 years off, I started to meditate 8-10 hours a day, it was probably the best decision I ever made in my life, I started to develop the tools and techniques that helped me deal with my own emotional issues. Techniques that became invaluable as I faced other challenges to come. I truly began to understand the structure of emotions and how to change how I felt about myself.

I moved back to San Diego in the mid 1990s, I took a job as an alarm technician again and continued my work on myself, to realize my ability to succeed. In the late 1990s I was diagnosed as HIV positive. I was facing my own possible death. As anyone who has had a life threatening disease can tell you it is an overwhelming experience. But I was determined to carry on. To take on life, to learn and overcome. I was determined to remain positive in my attitude. I knew that this was the best way possible to remain healthy. I had seen too many people become emotionally defeated by HIV and their physical health soon followed. Even my doctor told me when I asked him that a positive attitude was the biggest factor he had seen in surviving people.

As the years rolled on I became stronger and stronger emotionally, things became easier, I was learning to love myself more and more. I moved to another company and ended up being the regional service manager for the second largest alarm company in the country, I used my techniques and my understanding of people in my job with great success. It was amazing how I could motivate my employees and get great results because I understood the dynamics of what their issues were and how to effectively help them to overcome them.

After I left this company I started an internet based business selling collectable cars, at the time I was working 20 hours a week pulling in 5-6K a month. I was forcing myself to confront my own issues of having what it took to succeed. After about 2 years the economy changed, my sources dried up and I ended up having to take a job again. I ended up at a good company who hired me as a technician again, but within 3 months I had become the service manager using my techniques, making sweeping changes and major improvements, consistently increasing my departments staffing, performance and profitability.

I knew I was ready to move on to what I really wanted to do which was to teach people how they can overcome anything, that they could create a life that was wonderful. I had already achieved this for myself. I had become extremely happy, I see myself as a beautiful person with a lot to offer humanity. After all, there isn't anything I have been confronted with in life that has beaten me. I have taken the bull by the horns and won. Life is good……  How can I help you?